John laughed at me yesterday night. All because I am feeling down last night. I have no idea what’s wrong with me actually, I just feeling a little bit down and show him my sad face. He laughed at me, I am just look like a person who just break up with boyfriend. hmmm… am I?
aiyah.. no idea lah! I wish I could get back my happy mood! Where are my happy mood ah?
I didn’t want to take John’s cash which he passed to me last few days. I told him to bank in the money to own account and issue a cheque to pay the housing loan directly. I am not going to let him have chance to say that he already share his big portion of bonus (amount paid to housing loan) with me. I know that he will always mix up family money with my personal money. He is thinking that all the money goes through me are giving to me. I never use his money, why I have to bear the responsibility? No way!
Another busy night of cleaning works for John and I. You won’t believe that LuiLui was vomit again last night. I swear! I didn’t give her milk. I just put her sleep like usual, but this fuzzy little girl trying to challenge my patient. She keep crying and refuse to sleep. I have tried my best to comfort her and carry her. I have no idea what’s going on with her, she just cry non-stop and until she vomit again.
I have no more mattress cover to change after this, yesterday one sent to laundry, available to collect 2 days after only. I can’t imagine what will happens if LuiLui again. I think I might put her sleep on the floor instead of bed. I’m very tire now.
I’m having fear to feed LuiLui before put her to sleep now. I have no give LuiLui milk before go to bed for long time already. But yesterday I did it because she keeps making noise when I put her to bed; I was thinking that might be she is hungry. So, I make a 4oz milk for her and let her enjoy it before sleep. John has warned me not to feed her before I made the milk but I insist to give her. Then, just like what he expected. LuiLui vomit again, John and me were running here and there to change her cloth, change mattress and etcs. What a tired night. I promise myself not to give any milk to LuiLui before she goes to sleep ever since! Sorry, Darling. You have to be clever and finish your dinner, so that you won’t be hungry at the night time.
Betrayal. I get the detail explanation from Wikipedia, you can refer to the website for more detail explanation.
Glad to know what I’m feeling ok now if compare with the first two days. Now I am more peace and relax. I think I can handle this case. I will make everyone satisfy with my decision made. hmm..Or should I said I will just let them think what they want. I am still who I am.