My mood has become much better after stopped consume medicine. I have to admit that those medicines really affect my mood and temper. I have no idea why but it did effect me. I am easily get angry and always feeling not happy. I also always feel empty. I am not sure this is because of my working environment or simply because of the medicine I took. Anyway, I am glad I stopped that medicine now. 
Another 45 minutes to departure from home and fetch John at Apartment. We going to wait for two friends and departure together. At first, I though I would go alone with friends only. But John said he want to join us but drive our own car go. Of course, I could not stop him to go since he is very sincere to do so. So, I have no choice to separate with friend and follow his car lor.
John told me his eyes having problem because man seldom cry. He said his tears must be stuck inside the eyes already and cause eyes problem! What a silly man. No daubt that he is seldom cry..hmmm… so far, I have no see him cry before. Maybe he just cry behide me and I do not know?? Anyway, I do not think this would causes his eyes problem lah..Silly man..
I started to watch a drama from 2.30pm until 7pm and then continue from 8.30pm until 12noon. From espisode 6 until espisode 13. haha…Am I crazy? Yes, I think I am really crazy. I want to finish this 14 espisode drama within these three days.
I am a rushing person who like to do something fast and want to complete it as soon as possible.
I am thinking to bake cake again. I keep thinking to remind myself to check ingredients at home to see if it enough to bake a cake. But lazy bugs attacked me so many days. My brain remember my wish but my body does not want to take action. So? ended up I am doing nothing at home but only keep complaint boring.
I know I always show John black face these two days. I was not tending to do so but I could not control myself. I have no idea why I would sound not happy when he says something to me. He does not complaints or says something bad to me but I just show him not so nice response. Hai.. I am moody lah… How to correct myself?
I could not believe that this already is the 3rd time I blog about my sleepless night. Well, I believe I have more sleepless night more than what I have blogged.
I miss the day without children. The day I am not yet be a mother could sleep like dead dog but now no more chance to sleep like that liao. Missing those days.
Is very hot these few days. I went out with John for whole day and we always feeling hot and it is very uncomfortable! I am tried to stay in air conditioning room or shopping mall for longer time but could not. Because we have to back to mother in laws home for breakfast and visit John’s sister home.
All places we go are extremely hot! I just feel like want to stay in air cond room and don’t want to step out!
Yesterday after watched a movie, I complaint to John that I am getting boring to keep on diet nowadays. I have successfully lost weight more than 5 times in my life but it always could not keep for long period. The best would be 2 to 3 years only and then like blowing balloon again. My weight would just increase even I eat like normal. Hai..
Sleep at 10.30pm is call sleep early or sleep late? It supposed is early right? But why I am still feeling sleepy now? I do not have much things to do at night, in fact, I am feeling abit empty at night now. I would walk into study room switch on my computer at home but I could not find thing to do in front of computer. I meant I do not know what to do when online now. haii
Now already is 12.21am. I suppose to sleep now but do not know why I would continue to sit in front of my computer and keep update my blog. Well, I am trying my best to rush my assignment which would due on tomorrow. But my brain does not function well due to sleepiness. I think I have to give up and go to sleep now. I would continue tomorrow morning and I hope I am still able to complete all.
Sometime we are talking too far about our future our life. There are so many unpredictable happening in our future, I could not even know what will happen on tomorrow, so how could I think of far future?
Of course, I do not say I should not think. Just I do not want to worry so much, so I select not to think so much. haha…stupid selection? but that make my life become easier, much better than I would just worry and scare since our environment here seem no future. :p
I having very bad mood recently. Especially these two days, I scold my children very often and have already lost count how many times I am get angry. I just do not have patient to deal with them now. Just a little happening could drive me crazy already! hai…I know I should not be angry with them but I just could not control myself. I am sad I am controlled by my bad temper. sob
Last Tues / Wednesday I received a sms from Er Xiao old boy member regarding a member’s father passed away news. I was thinking to call a friend who also a member in next day to check if they are going to his house or not. But forgetful me totally forget about it! I only realized it today! And it was too late to make the call.
Hai…forgetful people like me make this world become less care and less love. I think…
I am getting older and could not stand for sleep late already. Last two days, I was very interested to watch few movies. So decided to finish the movies after put the children to sleep. They usually sleep around10pm. So I only could finish one movie 2 or 3 hours later which mean is around 1am. Yes, I slept at 1am for the past two days and guess what? Finally I could not stand for tireness and sleep at 8.30pm yesterday night! Even sleep early than the children. My eyes just could not open and feel extremely tired yesterday. *Sigh* Isn’t this a sign of getting old?
Due to lay of sleep, I request John to fetch daughter to nursery, so that I could have a longer sleep. John straight away said cannot because his colleagie is waiting him at the bus station at 8am. He even commend why I don’t inform him early if want him to send daughter to cursery I feel like want to scold him! How do I know have sleepless night yesterday? How do I know I could only sleep for 2 hours? How do I know I would be so tire after taking care of sick daughter for whole night?? His partner couldn’t wait for extra 20 – 30mins at the bus stop but his wife has to wake up with tired body and send daughter to nursery!! )(*#@%)%^(*&#$^
I asked my friend who introduced the Mini laptop to me regarding the price last week. I am envy she manages to get USD150.00 discount voucher from her boss. If I have the discount voucher, I probably already buy the mini laptop, will upgrade to maximum memory and storage limit furthermore.Too bad, the voucher does not belong to me. and I have no idea where could I find it also.
If you know where to get the discount voucher, please let me know.
I am not very happy with John since last few days. I am not happy because I suspect he is hiding something from me. I do not like him to keep secret.
However, I know I am too sensitive already. He isn’t keep any secret but actually is my misunderstood. I already asked him and he gave me a very clear picture what happen is that. I am such a silly wife. I think I am thinking too much of unnecessary happening already.
Would you feel happy if your husband willing to share his 40% bonus with you? Well, If the 40% is totally belong to me and I have right to spend the money by my way then I probably will be very happy.
What if the 40% actually is just past by your bank account and then issue to home loan? Is that still considers that he is sharing the 40% bonus with you? I DO NOT THINK SO!
By the name the 40% is sharing with me. The true is I get nothing from his bonus! I rather he never give me the money because I do not want him to “think” that the money have giving to me but not the home loan!
John’s healthy not as good as previously anymore. I seen he has so many white hair now. And he also often complaining tire and sleepless recently. I think he must be too busy for his company projects already. I know his company has few projects to run now. He is the only running here and there to contact and communicating with suppliers and customers. Other business partner just could not help.
I am not sure is his partner does not want to bear the responsibility or because they are not able to manage the projects. I just feel pity on John. Company is belongs to 3 partners but he is the only one who has to in charge everything. I know I should not complain but I just feel unfair to John!
Nothing much to do on this few day beside go to the class. stayed at home whole day and watch TV and sleep. Recently, it is possible to find friends to go out for fun. All of us are having own family and kids. I don’t think we can just leave the kids behind and go to ‘wet’ by ourselves. 
No longer single life meant no longer freedom to ‘vivivava’ :p I think I better get ready myself to prepared more games with my girls and play together.
My sister finally dumped her boy friend. I very happy about the decision she made this time. I hope that she won’t regret and being so stupid again. SHe just just dump the guy very long time ago. No one of the family members are look good in their relationship. So I did, I don’t like that man at the first sign. I know he won’t be a good buy friend and don’t even say that will be a good husband.
Let me say a little prayer, my sister won’t be soft heart again and kena tipu again.
John is outstation again. He has just back on last Saturday and today have to leave us again. I wonder why he has to be so rush, why could he spend more days with his wife and daughter? I know I know..He has to work, he has no choice to leave us here. He is working hard for our future and give us a better future. OK..I understand all. I am just want to mumble a bit to release my stress. I hate the day without John at home. I miss him so much. 
John’s nephew had given birth to a baby boy last year. Last weekend we were attented the baby one’s year old birthday party. I wonder why some of the people do choose love even though they are saying they don’t. From what I see in the celebration, there is some different of feeling. I did not see them celebrated the first child who is a baby girl at her first year old also.
Maybe I am just think too much. Maybe their financial is allows them to celebrated the son birthday but not the daughter. Who knows it? Haha..
My plan to visit KL Bird Park and gather with friend on tomorrow was canceled due to the road closure in KL center. I have been thinking to visit the Bird Park for quite some times, I thought tomorrow would be the best time to visit! Now, everything has to cancel because of the eat full nothing to do people. It’s spoil my mood now. Why I am so bad luck?
What I am going to do in the weekend and how do I meet my friends then?
I could not believe that how dirty the water is. Look at the picture above! I have no choice to clean my water filter every month, could you see how dirty the filter is? Just for one month time, it could be so dirty and nasty. I do not even cook and use water heavily you know? Usually just for take bath and washing machines. That is.
I totally forgot about this complimentary Buffet voucher! I have lost a chance to pay 1 buffet price for 2 persons with above voucher. My Sales Rep passed the free ticket to me last month. The voucher expired at the end of 31 December 2008. I put the voucher at side after she gave to me.
I am too late to discover the voucher. The voucher has become useful now. Since it does not value anymore, I think I could dump it into rubbish bin already.
If your husband likes a girl who working together and the girl likes your husband too. What will you do? Well, I think this is kind of tough question. What could the wife do to stop husband has that kind of feeling? I could not stop him to meet that girl unless he quit his job or she leave. I don’t think I could be a crazy woman who keep nagging husband and suspect him also. Then? What to do? Sorry, I do not know what to do also. That just my question after watch a Drama yesterday. :p
Will you migrate? I am still thinking about the topic we chat on MSN yesterday. I used to watch HongKong Drama which have lot of scene of which family want to migrate to oversea or which family want to migrate to a better country. The only same thing in between the family who want to migrate are they are rich.
I think migrate really need many money, without money you don’t even feel safe to stay in a country that is totally different with your current living environment. *sign*
Migrate – the words for rich people only not for me.
I have received an email from one of the advertiser to request postie remove the post we write for them. I was very shocked to received the email, because they said will pay whoever removed the post before 3pm, 12 November a $100. I wonder will they really pay the $100 for who removed the post or not. I think that would be kind of big amount of all of the post have been removed before the time. Do they need to spend so much just for that?