I am trying hard to be a good mother now. I wish I could be an understanding mother who able to understand what my children think and know what they want. You may think this is very funny as a mother does not even know what her children think.
Well, I have to admit that I am a terrible mother. I do not have much patient to deal with my children. I know I should change, that is what I am trying hard now.
I finally have time to DIY some simple sticker for Aki. I have collected some cute picture and put it in a small box to make a A4 size sticker paper like below. I know the pictures are not beautiful but I just could not find others that look better. Well, give me more time, I will find other and bring more for my children.
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I decided to print my own sticker for Aki now. I have been searching in eBay and local store for the kids stickers. I took 2 months to search for it but get nothing at all. Of course, the price is one of the reasons also. I do not want to spend $3.00 just for a small piece of sticker. Aki would just stick into her book and then forgot about it. So, what for to spend so many money for that?
I found few stickers from HP website which is printable. I will print this out and let Aki enjoy it 1st.
Link :
http://h10025.www1.hp.com/ewfrf/wc/acCategory?lc=en&cc=us&dlc=en&extcat=toysstickerspuzzles&
Aki vomit again last night. I could not understand why she was so manja and wanted me to coat her 24 hours. I don’t even have time to go toilet and take bath. What happen to my baby?
I have to think of other way to cure her cough now. I think I will go for Chinese medicine this time. I hope it really help Aki to recover fast.
Recently, I am very interested in printing my own stickers. Of course, the sticker is not for me but is for LuiLui. Previously, I purposely brought those cute sticker to her from eBay, I had spent about $50 on last batch stickers. It was quite expensive actually, therefore I am planning to DIY the stickers all by myself now.
I am collecting cute cartoon sticker image now. Hope I could get it as much as possible, so that I could print it all in once and ready some stock for Aki. Just to share with you kidprintables.com is one of the website provides free printable sticker.
I just done the online temperament profile for LuiLui and below is the result I get from the website. And I enclosed the explanation of the result in below.
Parents often report that children whose salient temperament dimensions are the boxes with circles exhibit more challenging behaviors than whose scores fall in the boxes with triangles. Conversely, children whose salient temperament dimensions are in the boxes with triangles are usually regarded as easy by their parents.
So, is that mean my LuiLui is not an easy to take care children? Hmm..I think most of the children are not easy to take care. I hardly meet a parent told me that they children is very easy to take care and has no so called challenging behaviors at all. Well, no matter how hard to be LuiLui mother, I have to try my best to teach her too.
You can get the survey at http://steinhardt.nyu.edu/insights/survey.html.
I wish I could be the doll in the picture. Those toys are the lover of my lovely Aki. She likes to place those toys to sleep on the mat nicely and even would comfort and pat them to sleep just like how I treat her.
I wonder would Aki treats me like her toys as well. Sometimes, I do wish she could pampers me a little bit more. For example, give me few more hours to sleep well. 
I do not understand how John thinks about take care of Aki does. Sometimes, they way we using is such a big different. He uses to pamper Aki a lot, He willing to give anything that Aki wants just to stop her from tantrum and crying. He told me that he does not know how to deal with children when they are crying, so he would only give whatever they want if possible. Besides that, he even told me he actually is very happy to be a father like that, because he feels the need of a father in Aki! *faith*
My cousin bought this pair of Traditional Red Silk Shoes for Aki from China. A little bit bigger size for Aki, but I think she would be just nice on next Chinese New Year. So, she not going to wear this on coming CNY.
Anyway, thank you so much for her kind present. She is specially bought it for Aki and wish she could wear it on coming CNY. Never mind, I am planning to buy Aki a traditional Chinese clothing too. She would be looks cute with a real traditional Chinese Baby look in this CNY.
You could “see” a person character from their 3 years old. Do you believe it? People saying that what kind of person you are could be seen at the age of 3. I do not know whether I believe it or not, but I think character and attitude should be something different.
I believe character is natural born but attitude could chance according to environment that you growing in. I might not able to be a good mother and guide to my children, but I wish I could lecture them and tell them what is true and what is wrong. I hope they could understand life with they own view and do not need me to correct them.
I could not be a good guideline for my children. I heard so many people saying that parent have to be a good example to show their children, so that they could learn and pick up good character from us. I must say that I am not a good mother and I don’t know how to be a good example for my child. I am having problem to chance my bad habit and attitude. I would try because John starting sound to me, he sense Aki picked up some of my bad attitude, but I doubt if I could change my character.
A baby boy too deserves to hear nice girlish nursery rhymes. However, he may find baby shower games more enticing.
I’m having fear to feed LuiLui before put her to sleep now. I have no give LuiLui milk before go to bed for long time already. But yesterday I did it because she keeps making noise when I put her to bed; I was thinking that might be she is hungry. So, I make a 4oz milk for her and let her enjoy it before sleep. John has warned me not to feed her before I made the milk but I insist to give her. Then, just like what he expected. LuiLui vomit again, John and me were running here and there to change her cloth, change mattress and etcs. What a tired night. I promise myself not to give any milk to LuiLui before she goes to sleep ever since! Sorry, Darling. You have to be clever and finish your dinner, so that you won’t be hungry at the night time.
Naughty LuiLui fell down on the road and get injured. However this little monster doesn’t cry at all. I wonder will she feelings pain or not. I askes her if she feelings any pain, this little monster shake her head. So I assumed she feel nothing at all. Maybe her skin is thin as cow? Who knows it?We don’t even apply any medical on the injured skin because we are rushing to a dinner after the incidents happen. Anyway LuiLui has no complaints about it. She is speedy recovery now.
Enjoy a cup of Milo per day has become LuiLui habit. Or should I say order a cup of Milo for LuiLui have become my habit? I having breakfast with my family every working day. I will send LuiLui to parent’s place before going to office. We usually meet in a restaurant and have breakfast together, then parent will bring LuiLui back home while I going to work.
A cup of Milo for LuiLui and a cup of Coffee Ais are our “trademark”, all the waitress know that are what we want. Usually they will get ready before we order it. 
All the parents wish they children would be the smartest person in the world. I’m being a mother, I do wish to provide the best to my children and do anything to bring her a bright future. I have registered LuiLui to a famous kindergarten. I wish to enroll her into Innovative Tutor provide by SCORE as well, I hope that she could have a great progress in her studies and train to work hard from young age.
What is the most recent thing I did with LuiLui? Let me see.. Yes, John and I brought her to a movie titled Ratatouille last Sunday. It was a funny and great movie if without LuiLui at aside. I think LuiLui still don’t know how to enjoy a movie yet, she keeps making noise in the cinema and I am forced to comfort her by nursing. Frankly, I can’t enjoy the movie. I was busying entertain LuiLui in the whole movie session. 
My sister brought over her daughter and has a check together with my LuiLui at my mother’s house on the same day. So sad to found out that her daughter is missing vagina.
I have tried to search online for that information and wish to know more about it. My sister is feeling sad now. Her husband will send their daughter to do a detail check up at specialist again. All of the family members are worry about her now. We have so many questions that wish to know but haven’t found the answer yet.
I have read few website written in Chinese and English that provided this health topic. One of it is http://www.netwellness.org/ency/article/001497.htm. However, I still have thousand of question that doesn’t clear about.
My mother’s house have a very busy weekend, because my sister brought her children to visit us on Sunday and will be staying for a week. My mother going to very busy on coming week. Who is the most happy person on yesterday? Of cause is my LuiLui who was always alone in her grandmother home. Now she have more friends to play with and I am sure she will fully enjoy the moment. Now is my time to say a little prayer, I hope LuiLui won’t over excited and play without nap. She will be very fussy at night if didn’t get enough nap.
I know I am definitely not a good mother for my children. Besides money, I can’t provide them the care and attention they need. This is what I always blame on myself. I am just don’t know how to be patient on handle LuiLui temper tantrum as I am a hot temper person too. I just not easy to cool down myself and listen to her.
I actually understand that she might hard to express herself with words on particulars moment, so she is expressing anger and frustration by her tantrum.. However, stupid mother just can’t stand for her keep whining, crying, screaming, kicking and hitting. I often asking myself what should I do to stop LuiLui doing this or how should I handle this when she doing it again. Very headache to facing this kind of situation. Being a mother really a hard task! Can I quit? Opps…Just kidding.