Praying

My sister likes to pray in temple in Chinese New Year. She will visit the temple at first or second day of Chinese New Year and bring back a praying paper which explained her happening in the coming year. I do not say this is not a good habit just that I am being lazy to do that. Furthermore, I do to like to know about my future since I couldn’t change it and I do not want those forecast future to disturb my current life. So I prefer to go through my future naturally without think of too much.

Let Go

I remembered I told myself: if love would only bring me sad and pain, I rather let it go. Of course, I will still try to solve the problem as possible as I could but with a period. I always give myself 3 years time flame to do something or make it happening. And it is truth enough, happening around me with no future always end after 3 years. I don’t really know this is because of I am the one set the period and made the happening ended or simply because it is my fate.

Bad Dream

I have a very bad dream just now. In fact, I am awake in the middle of night about 3am just because of this dream and it make me couldn’t sleep now. I remember the sentence in the dream showing that whenever some very good happening come true then there will follow some bad happening. Oh my… it is happen in my dream I met someone I always wish to meet again but never meet for 18 years and then bad thing happen..This is really bad, and makes me understand myself more again.. I am a person who will let go something if I am living in bad situation.

Bad Time Management Skill

I am getting lose in manage my time. I thought I would have more time to do my work after starting work from home, but I am not. I am feeling I have less time than previously; I am not sure what happen. The only reason I could think of is I am having bad time management skill. How to improve it then?

No More Yoga Practice

I tired to practice yoga at home last few month. But sad to say this only able to continue for one month and now already totally stop practice. I wish I could continue but my lazy does not allow me to do so.
Sometimes, I have to start working at very early and this would make my lazy bugs stronger. Should I find Yoga center and join their classes? This may be the only way to chase my lazy bugs away.

Pencil & Eraser

Pencil: I’m sorry….

Eraser: For what? You didn’t do anything wrong.

Pencil: I’m sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you’re always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That’s true. But I don’t really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I’ll be gone and you’ll replace me with a new one, I’m actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad.

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They’re always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way… they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

This is for all parents out there…..

Have To Wear Sunglass

My two daughters also fall in sick since three days ago. I already have sleepless night for three days already. Now I am looking like a Panda more than a human. I think I need to wear sunglasses to office already. My boss, colleague and customer keep commented I am looking pale. I think they really thought I am facing big problem now. haha

Change My Thinking Way

I believe that you are the only person who could change your mind. You are the one have power to let you decide what to do and how to do next. No matter how other people telling you that they understand how you think and teach you how to do, but you would remain the same if you do not believe or want a change too.

I am trying to change some of my thinking oppositely. I need strong thinking to make myself understand and accept the conditions.

Tire

I am so tired now. My back is pain and my hand is pain too. I am clicking too much of computer mouse, this is the main reason causes my hand pain. Then, I am short of good sleep, I think this is another reason make me feeling tire and back pain. Hai.. Still have a festival to attend later.. However, I could not sleep now. I think I better go to iron cloth and take bath first. Then nap awhile if possible.

Just A Dream

We went to holiday together. Only him and me and we have a very sweet moment there. We sit close to each other, no talk no hug, doing nothing and watching around. It’s snowing but we could feel the warm from our body. I do not know how to describe the feeling but it is deep inside my mind. I wish to have it again but too bad I couldn’t. Because it is just a dream. :p

Love Or Hurt

No matter you are man or woman, I believe that you would like to have someone to love you and care about you. Moreover, the more people love you the happier you are. That is why man and woman would have more than one life partner or lover. They used to say they love them the same so having problem to select only one. If you really love someone, you should not hate her/him. You know sharing love is hurting her/him. Then why they still do it?

True Love Is Not Like That

My sister told me her friend has a guy go after her recently. Her friend already over 30 years old and has no boy friend for very long time already. Has a man go after her is good but the only bad is this man already married! My suggestion for her is get rid from this man as soon as possible! No matter he is telling her that her wife having what kind of problem and causes them have problem in marriage; or he is telling her he does not love his wife anymore; whatever excuse also showing that HE STILLS WITH HIS WIFE, NOT YET DIVORCE.

The only way she should be to be with him. Is getting him divorce!

Miss Him or Miss The Feeling

I suddenly think that what would I do if I am the one who also have to choice between ex and new boyfriend. Maybe I am bad but I really do not know how to select.

Yesterday I have a dream that about the same as above story. I dreamt of a guy I like before and he suddenly come back to find me through my friends. In the dream, he is suffering some sickness and wishing to meet me when he stills has time. Sound dramatic oh? Haha..

I miss this guy actually but never think of go to find him. I think I miss the feeling we together more than miss him. haha