Bad Mama With No Patient For The Children

In sms, he requested me to be patient when teaching Aki. He heard I am scolding Aki when he called back. I am a bad mother, as I never decline I have no patient to teach a child. I am trying to tell myself be patient or think from Aki side however, I just could not make it. No matter how many times I try, but I will still get angry everytime I teach her homework.

I also scare that I might spoilt Aki interests in reading and doing homework but I couldn’t control myself. The only way I could control and avoid to get angry is get away from her homework and teach her! I hope John will be the one take this responsibility. But seem like it quite impossible as he always busy for outstation project. He doesn’t even have more time to spend at home, never to say for Aki study.

Timetable

What I am doing on the day without John at home.

7.30pm - Fetch Aki back to home

7.45pm – arrived home

8.00pm – Switch on TV for Aki. She is waiting for Pokoyo and Mickey show every night. I am busying push clothing to washing machine, take bath, refill drinking water, iron Aki School uniform.

8.30pm – peel orange for Aki and me to enjoy while watching cartoon at Astro. Check Aki homework.

9.00pm – make milk to Aki after she finished the 9.00pm Mickey show. Chase her back to bedroom to drink milk and ready to sleep.

9.15pm – get Aki into bedroom. switch off the light and let her play in the room. She likes to come out from bedroom, but I insist she have to stay in the room.

9.30pm – if Aki is behavior and dove off fast then this would be the best time for me to relax. If her doesn’t want to sleep then I will just back to my bedroom then switch off whole house lighting and ignore her.

Since I couldn’t do my own things if Ski refuse to sleep then better I sleep also so that she wouldn’t have excuse to sleep.

Happy Being A Cow

Being a cow for almost 3 years already. I love the feeling of being of cow and nursing my girls. I feel so close with them. Maybe this is the only things that I able to provide the best for them.

I been reminded myself since very first day. I want to be a breastfeeding mother and I glad that I am. Until today. Haven’t decided will continue until when, but hope it will as long as possible. Since I am feeling with that. :p

Glad She Dumped The Guy

My sister finally dumped her boy friend. I very happy about the decision she made this time. I hope that she won’t regret and being so stupid again. SHe just just dump the guy very long time ago. No one of the family members are look good in their relationship. So I did, I don’t like that man at the first sign. I know he won’t be a good buy friend and don’t even say that will be a good husband.

Let me say a little prayer, my sister won’t be soft heart again and kena tipu again.

Man, Please Don’t Pamper Your Daughter Too Much

I do not understand how John thinks about take care of Aki does. Sometimes, they way we using is such a big different. He uses to pamper Aki a lot, He willing to give anything that Aki wants just to stop her from tantrum and crying. He told me that he does not know how to deal with children when they are crying, so he would only give whatever they want if possible. Besides that, he even told me he actually is very happy to be a father like that, because he feels the need of a father in Aki! *faith*

Lovely Aki Is Sick

Aki is sick again. I think many phlegm has stuck in her throat. I am having problem to put her to sleep. She wakes up every 15 minutes and vomit. Aki and I have no sleep for last whole night, while John has moved to study room to sleep

I am very tired. I though she just could not sleep well at the night but she having problem at naptime too. I am try to put her to sleep in candle afternoon, but she still vomit and caused her could not sleep. Moreover, I could not take a nap too. I am very tire, I think I have to ask my sister to help me take care of Aki for while and I want to sleep now. ‚

Character And Attitude

You could “see” a person character from their 3 years old. Do you believe it? People saying that what kind of person you are could be seen at the age of 3. I do not know whether I believe it or not, but I think character and attitude should be something different.

I believe character is natural born but attitude could chance according to environment that you growing in. I might not able to be a good mother and guide to my children, but I wish I could lecture them and tell them what is true and what is wrong. I hope they could understand life with they own view and do not need me to correct them.

I Mumble Again

Today I cannot stop to mumble my husband again. I try to control me not to no replace my mumble character for almost a year, but I broke the promise today. I have continued mumbling john for more than a hour!

I know I would be a very “calculative” person when in financial difficulty. I tried my best not involved in husband expenses previously because I could earn from online money. I do not need to count every single cent that we spent, so that we wouldn’t overuse the monthly expenses for loans and other necessary expenses.I really enjoyed the life like that.

I Am Enjoy To Hug Him

After so many years of marriage, do you still have the passion to hold your husband hand? Hug him at every morning? Give him a tight hug before he leave home? Or give a good bye kiss before you leave him?

I do. I still enjoying the moment I am hug him tight after the eight years marriage. This is the proof of I am still love him very much. I am glad he response my hug with a kiss or hug tighter. Besides that, I like to smell him, lying on his shoulder and kiss him too.

Harbor That I Go When I Am Sad

The way I hug and kiss john is the way I am showing my love to my man. I love to be hug by kiss and pamper, therefore, I assume that John would love me to do the same to him. I never show my side of little woman to my friends but only in front of John. I do not mind to be a big and fierce woman to others people, I only want to be a sweet little woman for my man. For me, he is the best harbor when I am sad or feeling lost. I do not need to pretend strong or powerful in front of him. With him, I am just a little woman who need love and care. I am very happy to be a woman like that.

Me And My Mother In Law

Mother and daughter in laws always have endless argument. I know I am not a good daughter in law, as I am not a DIL that good in sweet talk. I consider I am very lucky because I do not stay with mother in law. Frankly, communication will always be my problem. I hardly communicating with people unless we are from same environment or she/he is talkative person.

Although I might not a good DIL, however I would not be a bad DIL too. What I will do is try my best to fulfill what she request and get what she wants. Of course, this is limited to what I could give only.

Another 2 Days To Holiday

I am looking forward Thursday Holiday. I am planning to bring LuiLui back to my mother home and have a good re-union on the day. This coming Saturday is Chinese “Winter Day”, we treat it as the biggest festival amongst the year. Since I have to have my reunion dinner at mother in law’s house. So I think I better bring LuiLui to my mother home and enjoy the reunion two days early. I wonder would my sister bring her kids back home or not. If yes, I think LuiLui will be the most excite to know about it.

Mother In Law Phone Call

My mother in law kept calling me to “bring” John back home since last 3 days. John has not back to mother in law home for few weeks because of outstation. Actually he did call and told his mother about this, but I think his mother doubt that why he often outstation and not visit her for such long time.

MIL calls me every time John did not back home for more than 2 – 4 weeks. (We visit her weekly). Frankly, I have the feeling of she though I am the one “don’t let” her son visit her. Her phone call seem like a hint to me. She always asks me in the phone “will YOU come here this week?”

Short Term Apart Is Lovely

I always heard people saying that short term of apart with husband could bring you more joy and happiness, because you will appreciate more when your husband is back.

I do believe that, because I experience the feeling now. I miss John like crazy on the day her went to outstation, even though it just few days apart. He becomes lovelier to me when he back from outstation. So far, I am still very enjoying this feeling and have no complain about his leaving yet. I hope he would not leave us for long time, one or two weeks time is all right for me. But please don’t leave us more than two weeks; I am not sure I would not complain about that.

Miss John More Than Ever

John has gone to outstation today. I am have to be alone to take care of LuiLui at home again. I have temporary moved to my mother home because I am just too lazy to look after LuiLui all by myself. So, I think is better to stay at my parent home until John is back from outstation.

Anyway, day still goes by be the same. Send LuiLui to nanny every morning, going to work, play with LuiLui at night and sleep. Nothing special except miss John more than ever.

Tired, I Want To Sleep

I am very tired this few days, LuiLui does not want to sleep early and keeps disturb me to sleep. She does not allows me to sleep even though I am extremely tired. I can’t stand for her anymore. I asked John to handle her and let me sleep first. I need to refresh my energy, if not I am going to exhaust soon. Why LuiLui does not wants to sleep early these few days? Usually she would sleep around 9 - 10pm, but last few days she sleep at 11pm! I wonder whether she is sleep too much on the afternoon or what?

My Childish Husband

John is a super fan of Spiderman cartoon. Well, sometimes it is very fun to staying with this childish man. I still remember how crazy he was when he just watched the Spiderman movie last few months. He bought many Spiderman related stuff back home and told that he bought it for LuiLui. But he is the one playing and keeps those toys all the time. LuiLui doesn’t have change to “touch” the Spiderman toys.

LuiLui New Shoes

I bought this shoes for LuiLui on last weekend. I purposely went to shopping center and get her a pair of slipper. This is the second shoes I bought to LuiLui. I get her a soft leather shoes on her first birthday, she going to outgrow very soon. I have decided to buy her another new shoes, but always forget about it.

Last week, she suddenly remind me that I haven’t buy her a new shoes yet! I am very surprise to hear my little princess remind me to get her something. To be a honest mother, I must buy her a pair of shoes as soon as possible. Guess, how much this shoes cost is? It’s pretty cheap! Only $12.90 per pair. I like the design very much..it look very cute.

I Am Terrible Mother

Sometimes, I will feel very guilty to LuiLui. I am have use to do my own thing alone, I don’t like to disturbing by others people and I don’t like to keep informing people what am I doing and what will I do soon. I do not know how to care for other people I think, I seldom think from their side, what they want, and why they ask. I even being very lazy to spare my time and play with LuiLui. Am I a terrible mother? Yes, I think I am.

When Husband Is Outstation

When John is outstation for working, I feel like suddenly have too much of time to spend.

I have temporary move back to my mother home. Everyday repeating the same things, Back to mother’s home, take bath, dinner together, Then is a long night time. I don’t think I have this much of time when John is around because I have to bring the dinner and rush back to home for him.

Now, I don’t need to rush back to home again. Every evening, I will bring LuiLui to have a walk at out side. We going to the shop nearby, buy some ice cream and then walk back to mother home. What a relaxing life I have now.

Bingo! I Am Sick

OK..I’m back to office. Just as what I expected, I am sick and iffected by my LuiLui. I think I’m a terrible mother who doesn’t have healthy body. Even my mother is laugh at me, usually will only adults infected children, she never heard that a toddler will infected their mother. I think I am the first one.

I am still ok, but my LuiLui is very poor. She keep fussy on sleep and will vomit when cry. Now I have to make sure she doesn’t cry before fall in sleep. What could I do? Carry her all the time and make sure she is sleep then only put her on the bed. I think I’m probably  too tired. I need to rest more now.

LuiLui Is Sick, So Do I Soon

LuiLui has fall in sick since 2 days ago, she having flu since Saturday night. In addition, I found that her voice has changed due to the flu yesterday. She very fussy to sleep at night, and I has no sleep for longer than 2 hours in one go at the night since the day she fall in sick. She keeps mumbling and wake up every half hourly. I have no sleep for 2 nights already. The worst is I’m getting sick too!

I’m having flu now and a little bit sore throat, I know I’m going to fall in sick anytime. I think this probably due to lace of rest. I’m still ok with that, but I wish LuiLui will recover soon, I hope she will not be too fussy on tonight, so that I could have more rest.

Again! LuiLui Vomit Again!

Another busy night of cleaning works for John and I. You won’t believe that LuiLui was vomit again last night. I swear! I didn’t give her milk. I just put her sleep like usual, but this fuzzy little girl trying to challenge my patient. She keep crying and refuse to sleep. I have tried my best to comfort her and carry her. I have no idea what’s going on with her, she just cry non-stop and until she vomit again.

I have no more mattress cover to change after this, yesterday one sent to laundry, available to collect 2 days after only. I can’t imagine what will happens if LuiLui again. I think I might put her sleep on the floor instead of bed. I’m very tire now.

Little Hair

Do you see how little of my lovely LuiLui hair? I have no idea why her hair “quantity” just  as many as when she was borne. I think her hair never grow extra.

Anyway, she is cute even without hair. I love to help her tied her hair up even just few. She love to be tied like that too.. I hope her hair will grow more when she getting older. If not, I might have to use traditional way to rub some alcohol on her hair surface and pray it will grow.

Nauthy LuiLui With No Fear Of Pain

Naughty LuiLui fell down on the road and get injured. However this little monster doesn’t cry at all. I wonder will she feelings pain or not. I askes her if she feelings any pain, this little monster shake her head. So I assumed she feel nothing at all. Maybe her skin is thin as cow? Who knows it?We don’t even apply any medical on the injured skin because we are rushing to a dinner after the incidents happen. Anyway LuiLui has no complaints about it. She is speedy recovery now.

Far Feeling With In Laws

I always having fear to going to my mother in law home.I don’t understand why I have not that kind of close feeling with them. Maybe because we seldom meet each other. We only meet once or maximum two times a month. Is this the main reason? I am not sure about that. I do think that part of the reason is because I am a strange person.:lol:

I am hardly have communicating with other people, I am not a talkative person who can chat anything. I just don’t know how to chit chatting with my In law. Anywhere to learn how to be talkative?

1 Day 1 Milo

Enjoy a cup of Milo per day has become LuiLui habit. Or should I say order a cup of Milo for LuiLui have become my habit? I having breakfast with my family every working day. I will send LuiLui to parent’s place before going to office. We usually meet in a restaurant and have breakfast together, then parent will bring LuiLui back home while I going to work.

A cup of Milo for LuiLui and a cup of Coffee Ais are our “trademark”, all the waitress know that are what we want. Usually they will get ready before we order it.

Happy Ending

My sister who are over 30 now still a single. She broke up with her boyfriend half year ago. I must said that this was a very good decision she ever make. I didn’t like her boy friend since the first day he came to our house. I’m not sure why my sister chose him but I have the feeling of he not the right person at that moment. Even my parent have the same feeling. It is consider very slow to proof that we are right. They been together for 6 years already. I’m happy finally they had ended!

I Am A Grandaunt

Could you believe that I am a grandaunt at the age of 33 now? My immediate relative level has been upgraded from a single female to aunt one the day I married, because John has a 22 years old niece who just 2 years younger than him.

Then, I had upgraded to a higher level again. I am a Grandaunt before I have my LuiLui. LuiLui was born after 1 year only. Therefore, LuiLui was automaticaly upgraded to aunt level before she was born. And her niece is older than her. Sound funny huh?

I think I might be a grand grandaunt before 50.

Good News From Sister

I’m glad to heard that my sister’s daughter HY was confirmed by a specialist, she have no missing vagina actually. According to the doctor, she is having vaginal. We can’t see the dimple maybe due to she is too skinny and skin of vagina was stick together .

Doctor has give her some cream to apply which is helping her to “open” the vagina. They have to go back for another check up after 1 week time. I sincerely hope that everything is ok and “it it open after applied the cream”.