I don’t think I could sit on english horse tack nicely even it is a quality horse tack. Well, it is not the horse tack problem but I am having fear to ride on horse! Frankly, I never ride on animal except the horse in merry go round. Haha… I always worry that my weight is too heavy and the real horse couldn’t stand for me and will throw me away. I might worry too much but that is my fear. :p
No doubt that I still missing the day when we gather like brother and sister 20 years ago. I love the time we spent together and I did enjoy it very much. That three year bring me a lot of joy and happiness. I could say that I will never forget all the happening with him and all my friends in that three years time. This is a sweet dream for a mature woman only and soon it would become a sweet memory for an old lady.
My cousin is not just a child anymore. He shows sign of teenage since two years ago. Can’t believe that he changed 100% from a mama boy to a teenage who loves rock and roll. His mother told me he wants a guitar as present in his coming 16 year old birthday. Well, if his mother buy him a guitar then I think I could check out those price of guitar necks, perhaps I could get him a guitar neck as birthday present too.
My sister likes to pray in temple in Chinese New Year. She will visit the temple at first or second day of Chinese New Year and bring back a praying paper which explained her happening in the coming year. I do not say this is not a good habit just that I am being lazy to do that. Furthermore, I do to like to know about my future since I couldn’t change it and I do not want those forecast future to disturb my current life. So I prefer to go through my future naturally without think of too much.
I missed the chance to buy great christmas gifts for my elder sister and her children. We went visit to elder sister hometown at Christmas Eve, I already planned to buy Christmas gift for all of them but due to my mistake on time arrangement. I could not find time to shop at last minutes! End up I buy nothing to them. Haii
I remembered I told myself: if love would only bring me sad and pain, I rather let it go. Of course, I will still try to solve the problem as possible as I could but with a period. I always give myself 3 years time flame to do something or make it happening. And it is truth enough, happening around me with no future always end after 3 years. I don’t really know this is because of I am the one set the period and made the happening ended or simply because it is my fate.
I have bought two Hats for elder and youngest daughter last month. They need the hats for coming trip and all of us are looking for the trip very much. Besides hats, I bought them some jacket, gloves and inner wear too. I have to prepare all to keep them in warm and make sure they would not catch cold. Travel is fun only when all of us are healthy and have energy to share the joy together.
I have a very bad dream just now. In fact, I am awake in the middle of night about 3am just because of this dream and it make me couldn’t sleep now. I remember the sentence in the dream showing that whenever some very good happening come true then there will follow some bad happening. Oh my… it is happen in my dream I met someone I always wish to meet again but never meet for 18 years and then bad thing happen..This is really bad, and makes me understand myself more again.. I am a person who will let go something if I am living in bad situation.